Recognition

We live in a world where sharing is in a way caring, we facebook our newest items and check in at our locations so our friends, families and facebook friends are able to see. As well as using Twitter and using 4Square. 


My point of this is sometimes if you own something you tend to take a picture of things and share it on your facebook, this is where problems may arise in particular if you are speaking about relationships.


"If it's on Facebook, it's true" 


We rely on Facebook so much these days to keep ourselves informed of those around us and the latest happenings in life however what about relationships? What is the point in dating someone if you don't announce it? what if someone else is planning to get with you because they see on your facebook that you are "single" but it turns out you're not "single"? 


I know sharing too much information is bad but sometimes it's a good way to put people off. Maybe it's my type of thinking because I do keep my virtual identity updated and limit my own information being shared but what about relationships? 

Clingy

Sometimes I wish people will understand the definition of the word "Clingy". According to the Oxford Dictionary on the internet, the term is defined as: 

"(of a person) too emotionally dependent" 

and the derivation is 'Clinginess'. I cannot help but notice as well as those that are close to me begin to notice too, I am having this situation to deal with as one person in my life begins to know more of my friends they become "clingy" towards them as well as myself. I have been told about this and I do not know how to deal with it. 

Why be so emotionally attached to those in my life for if they are already a part of my life? I am already near the level of anger with this "clingyness" and I am finding it really hard to breathe

End Of Year One

It's a really sunny and bright day in Kingston, and it's also the same day of which I finish my first year of University :)
Smileys =) Was planning to take better pictures HOWEVER I really should of bought a SLR for them but sigh~~

Also also also.. finally rented a new place for next year <3

Feelings

The last time a blog entry was made was quite a number of months ago, this entry I wish to focus on the word "feelings".

I seem to have this feeling of indecisiveness, this indecisiveness is due to feelings that has been developed unconsciously. I've met someone who's changed me quite a bit, I've learnt I am capable of doing many different things because of this "feeling that has been developed".

People may look at this as something "immoral" or "wrong" but what is wrong when it feels so right? how does one judge what is "right" and what is "wrong" when they haven't experienced this type of feeling?

I've felt a bit awkward because I'm not usually the indecisive type - unless we are discussing about examinations and such academical topics. I feel awkward because I have so many things I would like to say to that particular person however I am unable to because I once made a promise in front of that person I shall not say it, if so I will successful gain a degree qualification with just a "pass" when everyone that knows me, would know I wish to obtain an "first class" honours degree. Why did I use my future to promise? it is to show how sincere I am to keep my words.

I am finding it even harder because the feelings inside me is slowly releasing itself and is about to erupt. So what if the words are spoken? as destiny is sometimes said to be pre-written does it really matter? or shall I take a different approach and believe that destiny is always within my hands and it depends on how I am willing to change things?

If I express my words in such a manner it will not mean anything. I believe it will only make the situation awkward.

I am not the type to settle for long, because once I sense fear I will either end my fear by flying away or face the fear by fighting it, of course by pretending nothing has happened but this time, it is different. I am unsure on whether to fly off the problem or to fight the problem. Uncertainty could possibly be the word to describe it.

I have come to the conclusion to fight it by, sorting my own feelings first. Take the time to relax myself, to rethink, to give myself some time for myself to think what is right for myself. As rushing will never be perfect, however last minute decision may be the things that change and write history but I know perfectly well being uncertain will get me nowhere.