Friday, 26 April 2013
Nothing
Sometimes I question about a woman's thoughts. Woman is often interpreted as the more needy counterpart and often the emotional one. I never understood that, perhaps I should seeing I am a woman after all.
I'm extremely confused, something that is wrong feels so right. Feelings wonder, my brain wonders, my actions are questionable. Who is to blame? Nobody but myself.
I guess in this world, nobody knows myself as much as I do. But recently, I have come to learn that I don't know myself as well as I thought. I learnt that I am quite a "woman". I used to be really quick minded, a quick decision maker, get over things quickly. Now, I am struggling. I honestly need to wake up.
Whenever there is a will, there is a method. Whenever there are hopes, things are due to happen. Or so they say. But for me, I honestly don't see hope as I should. For the first time, I got my hopes, not high but a little hope. I am left alone. I am not given 1 minute. Instead, I have tears and memories. There is no need to hold onto a dream that will not come true which is wanting that particular person to want you, the same way as you wanting them.
Do you believe in love at first sight? I don't, I never did. I never should. Why? It's a crush. It is ideal to forget the times they made you cry and the way they say your name, forget the moment of closeness, forget the beautiful voice, forget the beautiful face and just remember that you were nothing to them in the first place.
Tuesday, 23 April 2013
23rd April 2013
What a special day. I wished today lasted longer. I remember I was super nervous at this time of the night, and waking up, I was even more nervous.
This feeling of nervousness and excitement combined. Phew. I hope my feelings are right.
This feeling of nervousness and excitement combined. Phew. I hope my feelings are right.
Monday, 1 April 2013
Clocks
Happy April Fool's Day everyone!
I hope my readers have had a fun and enjoyable Easter yesterday with eating lots of chocolate and some going to church for Jesus' return, also not forgetting the clocks in the UK have gone an hour forward. So those that have work tomorrow, don't forget to set your alarms and clocks properly.
Speaking of the clocks going forward on the last Sunday of March and going back by an hour on the last Sunday of October, it has made me question whether it was necessary at all. Since I was a little girl (haha this may give away my age), I have always wondered about the hours I remember once when I was around 12 I was thinking of we are due to put our clocks backwards by an hour every year does this mean we are 12 hours behind the "normal" time.
Until I got older I come to realize that when the clocks go forward by an hour it means we are in the British Summer Time (BST) time which means evenings will have more "daylight" and mornings will have less and vice-versa for Greenwich Mean Time (GMT) in the winter.
I do question sometimes about these change to the clocks, at the end of the day those that suffers are mostly the farmers as it means certain times of the year they will milk cows in the dark or even check the crops without proper light. It not only affects their working environment but also lead to those that have insomnia or even those with Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD). I myself have symptoms of SAD as I will have difficulty in waking up in the morning and tendency to oversleep which cause me to have issues in concentrating and I end up seeing my friends less because of such disorder. Which is why I bought myself a SAD alarm, as I set my alarm for 7:30am (for my 9am lectures) in the winter, my alarm will start lighting itself up at 7am slowly until it get to 7:30am where relaxing music will play and it will be bright so I wake up. My parent's don't believe in such disorder that I suffer but these do happen. Maybe this is due to cultural or possible generation gap issues... hmm. But yes, these clock changes have affected me slightly but nonetheless I am eager to beat this for when I enter into the work of work upon graduation. I hope I am able to get a job after, I am ok with 9am-5pm jobs but I just prefer 10am-6pm jobs because morning rush hour is a pain. I prefer the evening rush hours.
I seem to have drift away from my April fool's topic, there isn't much to be honest but hope everyone had fun this bank holiday =) wrap up warm!
I hope my readers have had a fun and enjoyable Easter yesterday with eating lots of chocolate and some going to church for Jesus' return, also not forgetting the clocks in the UK have gone an hour forward. So those that have work tomorrow, don't forget to set your alarms and clocks properly.
Speaking of the clocks going forward on the last Sunday of March and going back by an hour on the last Sunday of October, it has made me question whether it was necessary at all. Since I was a little girl (haha this may give away my age), I have always wondered about the hours I remember once when I was around 12 I was thinking of we are due to put our clocks backwards by an hour every year does this mean we are 12 hours behind the "normal" time.
Until I got older I come to realize that when the clocks go forward by an hour it means we are in the British Summer Time (BST) time which means evenings will have more "daylight" and mornings will have less and vice-versa for Greenwich Mean Time (GMT) in the winter.
I do question sometimes about these change to the clocks, at the end of the day those that suffers are mostly the farmers as it means certain times of the year they will milk cows in the dark or even check the crops without proper light. It not only affects their working environment but also lead to those that have insomnia or even those with Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD). I myself have symptoms of SAD as I will have difficulty in waking up in the morning and tendency to oversleep which cause me to have issues in concentrating and I end up seeing my friends less because of such disorder. Which is why I bought myself a SAD alarm, as I set my alarm for 7:30am (for my 9am lectures) in the winter, my alarm will start lighting itself up at 7am slowly until it get to 7:30am where relaxing music will play and it will be bright so I wake up. My parent's don't believe in such disorder that I suffer but these do happen. Maybe this is due to cultural or possible generation gap issues... hmm. But yes, these clock changes have affected me slightly but nonetheless I am eager to beat this for when I enter into the work of work upon graduation. I hope I am able to get a job after, I am ok with 9am-5pm jobs but I just prefer 10am-6pm jobs because morning rush hour is a pain. I prefer the evening rush hours.
I seem to have drift away from my April fool's topic, there isn't much to be honest but hope everyone had fun this bank holiday =) wrap up warm!
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