Deaf-Mute

I was on the train to Waterloo the other day, I looked up at the advertisements as I was traveling and I happen to notice a charity that displayed about people who are "deaf mute". This means, they are not able to hear any sounds nor can they make a sound themselves.

It immediately got to me, I feel really awful knowing out there, there are people who are unable to hear their partners, family, friends or anything nor are they able to speak or express themselves the way people like myself can.

I really want to work for a charity who help these people, but sadly I feel I am unable to help but to donate money. I feel money can help but not much, actions are better than actual monetary items. But I guess it can help by a bit.

I am very thankful I am able to see, hear and speak. I have to thank my parents. I remember being told when I was born, everyone thought I wasn't able to speak because I was quiet. In fact, I didn't cry at all until the doctors had to pat me, for me to make a sound. If you look at me, I'm not a person to talk much unless I am with friends or family. I get shy. But, I feel very fortunate that I am able to hear someone telling me that they love me and I am able to tell them that I love them too.

1 Year

It has been a year since I had written on here, a lot of things has happened and a lot of things has changed. People change, a new set of friends, another semester, another set of expectations and certainly a lot of new and upcoming decisions due to be made.


I am the type to consider the worse scenarios in order to prepare myself before I take a next step. Reason being if I am aware of the worst and I am willing to face the consequences then I shall take the step. 


I hate to admit my worse however I had failed my accounting module earlier in January which will mean, I am due to take a retake exam in August. I am really worried.


I fear I am not able to progress onto my study exchange in Hong Kong. I fear I fail then I will still be able to progress onto my final year (providing I pass the next 2 at the end of April and the next two exams in May) but I will be required to return after my final year just to study for one module. Which makes my degree a 5 year degree rather than a 4 years.


If I fail this retake, I shall need to forfit my study exchange in Hong Kong to begin my final year and resit afterwards. It is a big risk. I don't know how to face this. Parents are fine with my decision however I can tell by their eyes they are disappointed and prefer me not to fail my retake. I am worried.


Accounting is nothing new to me, I had taken it for 3 years in A Levels and college then, another year at university first year. This is my 5th year and I am not getting the hang of it. What should I do?


I know I need to be in Hong Kong from September onwards, but I fear I may not be strong enough to do so. 1 failed module, gave a lot of problems and considerations to be made.


I hope I can get though this. I hope I WILL PASS the module. I hope everything goes well from now.