Growing up

When you was younger, as in much younger you dreamt of many possible things that you would do if you could, or should I say once you turn into an adult all these ideas could come true.

As I was talking to childhood friends and looking back at our photos from primary school, everything seemed really different. The smiles were genuine, there was no such thing as "faking a smile", there was back stabbing but was only the petty ones and often sorted out really quickly, there was fall outs but we all missed each other. Arguments would be sorted by the teacher telling us to work together in groups and we were left to choose each other and bond again. 

It all seemed like last year. Primary school days were great because it was all innocent and real. The only cosmetics was really just lip balm and face cream, everyone's hair was au natural - natural curls and natural sleek, nobody gave each other many attention and the people that get the attention is the classmates, never have I cared about what others thought of me nor was the term popularity existed - the only popular girl was the girl with a boyfriend or the girl with the gadgets or the person with the shiny Pokemon cards, boys? They were gross, I don't recall crying apart from when mother has a nag at me or when I missed Hong Kong after my annual holiday and everyone was a friend to me and I was everyone's friend because we all knew each other and was happy to work together. 

What happened to being genuine in everyone's lives? What happened to the things we get taught in school? I've had the luxury of attending school and university and everyone I progress on, people seem to lose their kindness and I mostly see pretentious, people worrying about their appearance and people doing  things that they are not used to, to impress the people they don't need, just to fit in. 

I had a fall out with a friend of mine in 2009 I believe. I remember always talking to that person about everything, there are days where we didn't talk but when we talk it seemed like we had a million things to say, we clicked on really quickly through college and became close friends. We fell out and it felt really warm when receiving a message on my birthday with the name that they used to always call me. It seems like as much as you never spoke, on special days you are always remembered. My birthday in 2013 has been great and I learnt a lot.

Guess it's time for keeping in contact again. I learnt that when you grow up, you don't lose friends at all, you just happen to learn who the real ones are as try would always be around for you regardless of how long it takes for them to reply to you.